I had started living in dreams. Started feeling life is a movie, a beautiful movie and then it kicked me right on my ass. So hard that i shall never forget. I had forgotten what reality is. Life is not bright but made of hundreds of shadows. Every day begins with a drop of tear, ends with a tear. Falling in love is out of question, ur heart pays a lot, n gets pain in return, just pain. Its memories we live with but what if the memories kill you? I have no more wishes left, as it always, mind you, always follows with something bad, it takes back something from you, something more than you asked for. Life, is not freedom but staying trapped in your thoughts, in the society. I wanna fly away, to a world where there is happiness, thats it i ask for, which i am sure doesnt exist. Heaven? It does? I wouldnt really mind going there too!
Monday, 4 November 2013
I love you...
I never thought i would go through this phase, i have dated guys before but it was never this bad. The break ups bothered me, but for a month or two and I was over it! But this guy, he just drives me so crazy. I have ego issues but when it comes to him I just bow down. Everyday I sleep with a tear, for not having him in my life anymore, every morning i wake up with a firm decision of not thinking of him anymore and moving on, the same night i have a tear again for thinking about him the whole day! The cycle continues, it does, every single day!
I dont know if its destiny that doesnt want us to be together or is it that its just the wrong time for us together. I do believe in destinies, but I really cant figure out that God's got some better plans for me or he just wants to see me in trouble or may be testing how much I love him.
His ego, thats another thing checking my patience, I wonder at times, a guy with so much of ego who thinks only he is the right one, not everytime but most of the time, no doubt he loves me immensely but a few things make me wonder should I really wait for him, is it worth crying for him day and night, is it worth being hurt so much by this guy? What if its just never meant to be? I really need answers for this, like asap!
But whatever he is, whoever he is, and however, I just know, for now, that i love him, i really do!
I dont know if its destiny that doesnt want us to be together or is it that its just the wrong time for us together. I do believe in destinies, but I really cant figure out that God's got some better plans for me or he just wants to see me in trouble or may be testing how much I love him.
His ego, thats another thing checking my patience, I wonder at times, a guy with so much of ego who thinks only he is the right one, not everytime but most of the time, no doubt he loves me immensely but a few things make me wonder should I really wait for him, is it worth crying for him day and night, is it worth being hurt so much by this guy? What if its just never meant to be? I really need answers for this, like asap!
But whatever he is, whoever he is, and however, I just know, for now, that i love him, i really do!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)